I’m a perfectionist. Which is hilarious because I’m incredibly flawed (aren’t we all). I’m constantly messing up. Putting my foot in my mouth. Over-sharing. Beating myself up because I’m not meeting the standard I set for myself.
I’ve tried to be one of those people who ‘visualizes the future’ and sends out vibes to the universe to attract all these things, but the truth is, I’m paralyzed by fear of being less than perfect. I didn’t realize this until I heard a quote from David Foster Wallace on the subject of perfectionism.
“You know, the whole thing about perfectionism. The perfectionism is very dangerous. Because of course if your fidelity to perfectionism is too high, you never do anything. Because doing anything results in…it’s actually kind of tragic because you sacrifice how gorgeous and perfect it is in your head for what it really is. And there were a couple of years where I really struggled with that.”
– D. F. Wallace
I don’t know if I’ve ever read a truer statement.
I feel this way the older I get, that I’m disappointed in life (with myself mostly) because my expectations are so high, but I don’t attack life and live out dreams because again, I’m terrified of failure.
Anyways…that’s my little piece of wisdom for you today. If you’re looking for a Google deep dive, research Wallace. You will feel immediately understood, and then heartbroken because his talent is no longer with us.
This might be too heavy for a Monday. I have to do something to leave you feeling good…
Look, a puppy!